"3:17am"

3:17am

I can't sleep

Its been days now

Maybe weeks

Maybe more

That

My sleeping patterns

have been

Off

I lay in all angles of the bed

To find only more restlessness

Tossing and

turning me

-I wish to exhaustion-

But no

Still awake

Still eyes wide open

And I lay

On my back

On my stomach

On my side

And the other side

Blankets wrapped around me,

Pillows over my head,

Between my legs,

At my feet,

I pray for sleep

Staring up at the ceiling

out the light of my window

and the shapes of shadows

All around me

Those are my books

And that is the radiator

And the closet and

My yoga mat...

I need to work out

When I wake up tomorrow

I'll do it.

Lights off

Lights on

TV

Netflix

Hulu

Nothing good

Read a book

What time is it?

3:17am

In Cali someone might still be

Up

I'll call

No answer

Deep sigh

Leave a message

"Hey,

I can't sleep

Call me if you get this."

Have some

Water

Milk

Maybe tea

to ease me to sleep

Lay down

Sit up

Lay down

Sit up

The quiet

The silence

Lay down

sink back down

Next to the

empty space

beside me

In tears

I know

I am alone...